Friday, August 19, 2005
shithead
wow. 3 guesses who e shithead is. rite. me. first off, im sleeping at 12:30 everyday. thanks 2 maths pt, el pt and hcl pt. nice. den just got bac geog test. im such a ******* idiot who can t do anything rite in this world. y i was born into this hell i dont noe n probably will neva noe. shit me. i hate my life. actually i hate this world. nothing in this world is positve, i realised. there is only misery, hatred, sadness etc. all e negative things. pessimistic? i dont think so. just stating facts. ws after ws. pt after pt. exams after exams. wats e point? i dont think i see any point in life at all. at all. all u do is work. den prac piano. now 3meals a day are eaten in e car. im gonna die early next time if this continues. suck cock. den rush from one place to another. no time for rest. 4get abt rest. not impt here. fine lah. i noe im stupid. its not like as if i din noe. so y plonk me in dis freaking sch? i dunno. make my life more miserable? make me die from work? outsiders always think wat an 'angelic' sch dis is. wait long ah. i rather go 2 some shitty sch. not so stress. at least can stay and remain alive there. isnt it obvious? im dying. dying in all aspects. i noe. u dont haf 2 tell me. shit me. wats the point in life, i ask. nothing comes the reply from my head. both the devil n e 'angel' says nothing is gd in life. life is pointless, dont u think? no, maybe u tell me dere r some gd things in e world. yes i'd say all my frens rock. dose in rgs like miCatiqAirmeliAkayleigHdebBcherellEetCetCetC. yes dey rock. but they cant change my life can they? i mean they give moral support n all dat but they...4get it. shitheads cannot think n they wont n they'll just die. i think im gonna die. gd luck 2 me the shithead.
scream, even though nobody's going to hear;
2:35 AM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
netball. RISE concert. nur atiqa bte asri. delise yang.
ok tok abt netball 1st. yesterday was inter-house netball com. sad lah...in total got 4 matches den me n atiqa onli played 1. nvm...be satisfied wif wat u get. e onli thing was dat i din go 4 strings n e concert is next fri. AAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!
ok.
so wen i went home n my dad saw me all sweaty, he asked me if i went for a race. i said no n 2 cut e long story short i got thrashed 4 going 4 netball instead of strings. n ***** still thinks its cool. haiz. ok my parents were screaming at me n i was standing in e toilet lah. weird place huh? n my maid was behind giving my parents a weird look. u noe e "xiao" look. yeah. but i admit i was wrong lah. cos i only told dawn( thanks 2 mic) but i din tell e teacher. so im wrong dere. n ok yeah i admit again dat i shudnt haf gone 2 play n ponned strings i couldnt help myself. i mean...i like sports so much...it drives me nuts lor. haiz. ok enuff abt netball. let bygones b bygones
ok im going 4 rise concert tonight. wif atiqa. i'll cum 2 atiqa later. dat twit. yeah cos i din go 4 e rjc concert in june cos i was on holiday. so i haf 2 make up 4 it. n all other sch strings concert seem 2 haf ended. doesnt seem much of a big deal as im typing it...but...just in case..................nvm 4get it. lets get onto ms atiqa.
ok. ms nur atiqa bte asri. wat did she do?? god dat freaking idiot. she went 2 sms ______ dat im seriously into ______ which is SO not true but its not likely that _____ will believe me right? god. when i told ____ not 2 belive me _____just said 'anything.'. but e sms _____ sent atiqa was a totally different story. dis is wat _____ sent: 'Lol. Hahahaha. Girls are like that isit? Dunno lah. We just sms alot. Alot alot. What does she say. Dun say anything abt this to her. ;) hahaha'. haiz...*shudders*...god now atiqa make me xia4 bu4 liao3 tai2. idiotic her lah. sabo me 4 nthing. den 2nite she going wif me den we haf no choice but 2 meet _____ cos he has e tix wat. haiz...*sigh*...
ok tok abt delise. nthing personal. its just dat yesterday after i got thrashed i totally 4got i told her 2 meet downstairs my hs cos my dad was gonna send us 2 yamaha. but i 4got. n my dad barged into e music room at 7:25 n asked me if i was still going 4 yamaha. den i realised. shit. so in de end i din noe wat happened lor...cos i din speak e whole night. yeah so yesterday was quite depressing. yupps. i thot i wudnt b able 2 go 4 RISE concert 2nite. but wen i told mum dat i had already arranged my time 4 e afternoon b4 e concert she said ok, so long as i noe wat i want n wats gd 4 myself.
so let this thing pass in peace n let me learn my lesson.
let bygones b bygones.
scream, even though nobody's going to hear;
2:08 AM
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
pts. rs.
ok. el pts up. lit pt down. hcl pt still hanging on. ok tok abt lit first. WE ROCK BIG MAN!!!!!!!!! we thot we woud get super low cos 4 e presentation debbie left irmelia half undressed. (we haf cooled btw, but atiqa still has phobia). anw...we got 19/20 4 presentation. if u dun count e 5 marks 4 qna. WE ROCK!!!!!!! den e folder, which was a newspaper, got 20/25. proded xia. n we handed up one day late so we thot need 2 minus 10%. jc rocks. whoohoo......yupps. so we are proded. n we RAWK GARGANTUAN!!!!!!!!!! nxt. el pt. some ###### thing abt newspaper articles. mus write abt sch event. cannot write abt teachers. sad. otherwise everyone wud write abt xiaxia or snoopy. HA. worst ting is, cannot choose own grp. hes gonna allocate our grp members according 2 where we stay. as in e nearest mrt station 2 ur hs. as if dat will help lor. cos i cant even take public transport. sheesh. ok. hcl pt. doing on dis china guy zheng4 he3. so NOT interesting lor. n still got individual thingy. sick. cant stand pts. nxt is maths cum rs pt. dat one we(mic, willette, dorcas) doing like xiao. yesterday slept at 12:30 cos of dat lah. but staph is worse lor...slept at 5. actually, no. she said she din slp. shes now at my hs having cello lessons. cool. mic is coming later. looking forward 2 dat. #### gtg.
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scream, even though nobody's going to hear;
11:35 AM